My Thoughts on August 29, 2013

I had my first pick up the phone to call mom moment. I was going to tell her how embarrassing it was that little Matthew peed all over the seat at the restaurant. That sucker punch of reality hit and hit hard. I’ll never talk to her again on Earth. Never get advice. Never vent to each other. Its all really sinking in. I feel like I can’t breathe. Julianne (my awesome sister-in-law) talked about giving her mom a 60th party. She turns 55 tomorrow. She made the comment she thinks her mom will still be kicking and acting young at 60, so she will wait until then. Mom was kicking and acting young too until this beast came in and took it away. She died at age 59. I wanted to tell her that, but didn’t think I could get it out. I look at mom’s picture and I still have a hard time believing she is gone. Like that obituary CAN’T be for MY mom.

Blessing of the Day: Matthew told me exactly what mom would have said if I was able to talk to her.

About Sherry

I'm not sure about me yet. I lost my mom, my best friend, my confidant to brain cancer. I see the good it has brought in others, I'm just not sure yet how it has changed me for the better. Her kindness and finding joy in sadness has been passed to us, but this is a pain I have never felt. I know she would not want us sitting around crying, she would want us enjoying each other and laughing and continue to grow closer. She loved when we all got together and just laughed and that's what we have been doing. But honestly, I'm really scared of life without her. I relied on her for everything. Most of my time was spent with her, so I'm just not sure about me. I just take it day by day and try to find the beauty of gray.
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One Response to My Thoughts on August 29, 2013

  1. Mindy says:

    I still get a jolt of reality everytime I see a picture of her. But I can’t imagine your pain:(

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